I promised myself I would finish my alternator rebuild today so I can get that thread finished and I can get the ol silver girl on the road again. As she always wants to be pampered, she really is a cranky ol lady. Though like any ol grandma she gets where she has to go with all her age spots and leakage but it may just take awhile lol
I admit I get all my knowledge even how to read and write by researching. Since I was really young my two loves have been antiques aka ol junk and horticulture aka green weeds. They are what has expanded my education. In school I experience how curl the "real" world really is and how no one loves one another any longer. I picked up my dis respect for society in all those years school taught me what I didn't want to be. It also showed me that there are others like me and school for us will be very tough to get through. We tend to dwell away from our passions in an attempt to "fit" in mainly because we just want to be left alone. Very few of us ever make it into our 30's because of that. If we stick with our passions our future can be so grand but when we are young it is so tough for us.
I remember when I was in elementary school I had some amazing teachers and friends! I use to teach so many others my age and younger about my passions. I became a role model to a lot of kids younger then me and me at such a young age. I wish to this day I was old enough to carry these people on through life they were such great souls and spirits. I remember we would go out into the playground and I would gather wild things aka weeds to bring back to my desk. I would have all these odd living green things growing around my desk and in the window; It was great! Then I would get the teachers that didn't value my gifts and wanted me to go main stream. I remember one teacher who wanted us to bring in a flowering plant for science. I searched for an actually plant that had a flower, leaf, steam and roots all on one plant; I was so happy to find one! Then I went to class but the flower wasn't big enough for her plus she made us tape them to construction paper and hang them on the wall. I thought we would allow them to grow and learn from them. It really did hurt me at such a young age.
Around that time I became a "loner" I didn't want to share what I loved with anyone else because others just couldn't respect what I loved. I am intelligent but just not in the mandatory teaching programs. Unfortunately our educational systems aren't capable of handing certain gifts that the universe be-stoles on a select few of us. We are shunned upon and stuck in certain "special ed" areas because our intelligence can not be understood. As I became older it gave me the ability to research, with researching I found that I was not what all these people labeled me as. I instead have amazing knowledge in certain areas and these should have been treated as gifts and not curses.
I was lucky to have been in that generation that really didn't see the birth of portable electronics. In that generation we really didn't have Internet so we couldn't just Google. If I got something new rather plant or antique I had to physically research it. I never learned what I wanted to know in school so I had to find the books and the people for my research. With the researching I learned how to read, write and spell just by researching. If I wanted these to be my passion and lively hood I had to learn the lingo aka "English" and that is an added bonus of research. With researching you get to see how all these fancy "English" words are used. It seemed to me that school was where I went to learn the "way" of life in the "real" world. In order to have fun in school I would just pretend it to be my big science project lol besides America's schools haven't changed since 1959.
Researching pre Google was really great and rewarding. There is nothing like actually having a physical copy of something rather then digitized on pixels. When I was younger I would hunt down any books/catalogs/magazines/newspapers on anyone of my passions. Being younger it was a great free source of hours of research and fun. I found out one could learn real history by just looking through Americas junk. The magazines, newspapers and catalogs offered so much knowledge for me of times that were lost. My saying is, "If we forget our past, We are doomed to repeat it" I also must not forget about PBS and local channels back when I was younger. These were my favorite shows of the day This Old House, Victory Garden and Antiques Roadshow. As a visual learner those shows taught me so much when I was younger.
Even with all the pain and rough spots of my child hood I must admit that period in time was decent. It was the birth of the internet, before it became all social media and virtual this n that. It was a great time for researching as the internet was a great source of knowledge. There were forums I joined, seed exchange sites, eBay, and digitization!! I was able to find so much information it was just over whelming growing up with these passions. Everything I could learn and I didn't have to physical search the four corners of the world for; It was a great time.
I blame these passions for making me so enamored with that run down abandoned property in Missouri. With all my heath issues at such a young age that very few people have and that many people including the government believe I do not have life is hard. The only things I have to draw my energy from all this crazy mess is my passions again. Using that property as an inspiration is what is helping me at the moment it allows me to have my coffee in the morning and research all the interesting stuff about it! Its so physically and emotionally draining doing working on your mothers rental with what little energy I can muscle. I really do enjoy what I do and I am lucky I can continue to do it.
I will stay on with my morning research and coffee, every morning! If the heavens want to shine upon me and grant me my disability I will be buying that property. I can then go fourth with my passions as long as I can and hopefully be able to inspire so many other people.
You are your own person and as the poster says HANG ON you are unique and that will pay off for you!